Some days have left me in bed most of the day and others have kept me up all night. This weekend I was not feeling so hot. I was up during the night with a headache, or sweating and not able to sleep. Sick to my stomach and exhausted during the day.
On Friday it was confirmed by US that baby girl is breech. For well over a month I've assumed that she was but I didn't want to verbalize this because if it was true it could change so much. (I could tell by her movements where she was sitting)
There is still time for her to flip on her own. Still time before conversations need to take place about breech birth and manipulation.
My type A personality has already gone to these places though. I am so beyond lucky to have such a supportive partner in Kevin. Not only is he encouraging and positive in his belief that baby girl will flip and birth won't be a issue but he also spent the weekend listening to podcasts about breech birth and comfort measures.
He still is supportive of if babe stays breech that the decisions to be made will be mine. He will listen and be supportive but won't pressure me one way or another. And for me knowing that even if baby stays breech the possibility of still having a vaginally breech birth with the right support team is huge.
He spent time this weekend continuing to talk about my home birth plan and ways he plans to make it comfortable for me He said he will make sure to play my "yoga music", diffuse my essential oils and burn my smelly incense. He says massage will be something to try, and he's already asked a hundred questions about how to set up the birth pool.
He talked about looking for some canvas prints of a forest view so he can hang those on the walls because he knows how calm I am in the woods. He talked about moving the TV in the basement to be able to show visually pleasing images for me and so much more!
This week has been stressful but he has taken the time to calm me down. To talk about my fears. We've always spent so much time talking, always being open and honest with each other. This is so crucial in a relationship but especially when you are talking about birth plans and preferences.
He knows the things I want to try and the things I don't. He knows how to not only keep me calm but to comfort me also. I may be a doula but when it comes to my own birth having that support for myself is important.
I am deeply comforted knowing I have such an amazing support person that will be with me the entire time. He is not only the Father of my children but my Best Friend and the greatest support person I could ever ask for.
How are you feeling about your own upcoming birth?
Do you get anxiety as you get closer to your birth?
How do you deal with the possibility of an ever changing birth plan?
Have you taken the time to talk to your birth support team about your preferences and the possibilities surrounding different situations that may arise?